Why Do I Badger Amy Lee?

Merry belated Christmas everybody, I hope holidays finds everyone happy and healthy....
This new year is going to be full of happiness and blissfulness and I hope everyone finishes off what they set out a year or few years back and set up new goals and ideas for the years ahead.

In this post I'll be discussing heartbreaks and how different people manage to overcome them.
It all starts with a feeling you make toward people you find amazing, pretty, dashing, attractive etc. This feeling doesn't just come to existence out of the blue, it's just more than a coincidence. It's a progressive emotion that stretches out to an extent where you'll find yourself enchanted and if developed furthermore, you are going to be committed to your initial feelings which is now turned into a 4 letter word: Love.

Some say love is sacred, love is pure, love is never having to say you're sorry, but on top of every definition of love I know I also have my own definition: Love is jealous!

You never know about this thing until somebody else seduces your lover and it triggers your jealousy department and you're gonna do something to calm yourself down. This is when different people react differently. Some let it slide, some cry their hearts out, some forget about it and some people (me included), take revenge.

I don't much care how some other guys react but let me open up for you. You gotta have to know me before you can judge me, so hang on and listen to me.

Let's say I have fallen in love 3 times throughout my whole life to 3 girls named S, F and A. (A is for Amy).

S was a lesbian who had worst taste in guys. F was a red headed pale girl and as well the most beautiful out of 3, and A was an extremely amazing woman. That kind of woman that never wears out or get ridiculous over time.

(Note: I loved these three girls in different times and places, I am no bigamist!)

As for S, she was a heavy built girl with lovely tiny teeth and a floppy hug.... She was actually a member of a library where I had a subscription in.
We just ran into each other in the aisles several times that ended up in a relationship, but not an steady one since I asked for sex before we had developed enough love to call our relationship an intimate one.

It's worth saying that 99.99% of guys fool girls into empty marriage promises to reach out underneath their pants and in 99.9999% of cases when they successfully get them laid, they will be moving on to somebody new to stick their flags on somebody else's ass. I actually tried this out for once years later to test the workability but the irony was, I wasn't so skillful at it to pull it off. I could't lie which was a factor, I wasn't not a good liar at least.

Anyways, I put en end to my relationship with S and took on another love that was destined to be worse than the first one. This next girl I met which I'd rather call 'F' was much younger and more straightforward than S and belonged to an upper class family who'd look down their noses to the other class. They were that kind of family who would've only hobnobbed with the biggest merchants and market magnates and some renowned shareholders in the town. I think it was their policy to consort with wealthy families of upper crusts to expose their beautiful young daughters to a bunch of some wealthy single guys waiting to devour.....

It's funny how I got to meet F to begin with, we met in a restaurant in our neighborhood. I had ordered a meal and had no idea where to sit down on it since the tables were full. So I looked around and couldn't spot any empty tables. There was only one round table or two available with extra chairs, one was occupied by an innocent face lad and the other by a young lady who had this eyes peering out like a tiger in a forest on fire!

So I chose the latter and thought, well, she caught my eyes and I am pretty single so why not take my chances and strike up a conversation to see if I can win a heart....
Once I got the number to her phone, I started texting her but as I had no idea how to humor a girl, I only did alienate her to a point where she said she's going to walk away for major irreconcilable differences. This marked my second heartbreak in a row, but I learned so many things from girls on the whole after two relationships at that age. Firstly, the way a relationship should be conducted and how you as a man have to tell all the lies and make empty promises to fool a girl down.

Not only the relationships are up alive by lies, so many other things in real world are also carried out by lies too. Just look at how presidents keep your hopes up by empty promises that are not later on kept. This is how it works, we are living in the world of lies. Just toughing it out...

Years went by until I found an amazing woman called A (Amy). She was someone else, a heroine, a compassionate, somebody to get along with, a fragile beast! A cause to kill or die for..... She was the center of the world to me, a destination, where the road ends, where you have no worries but reaching out to her....

It was a pity though that an unattractive man had a jump on all the other deserving people available there for the inbred conspirator he is whom unlike what was declared, had no prior relationships with Amy.